Why is the Higgs Particle So Hard to Find?

Its the particle that creates the one way force of gravity.This force moves at the speed of light.This higgs acts more like magnets,but can only attracts. Higgs particles makes all that is heavier,as it goes to the cores of all that is.Weight gives pressure,and thus great heat with great temperature..Thus Fission and Fusion.I think I'm seeing the photons all the way up O ya Bert